It is strange that we try so hard to do things - to remember, to forget, to understand, to be understood. When I think about why we do this, it reminds me of the numerous conversations I have had with people. Why do we try so hard? What do we want?
Each one of us has our own agenda behind these strenuous attempts. Some of us try coz that is the only thing left to do. Some coz they think it will change their present, wipe away their past, mould their future in the way they want it. Some others do so coz they just feel like letting their river flow and create its path.
In our attempt to do things we may end up working against our own agendas. It’s like this – our mind is trained to do exactly what we don’t want it to do. A lot of people have written about this phenomenon. I would not wish to elaborate.
What do we do when our attempts do not produce the results that we desire? What is it that we truly desire? Do our attempts truly reflect our intentions? Do we know what our intentions are, all the time?
Is the hunter being hunted? Do we let ourselves believe that we are here by design and that we have been empowered to act, to create, to destroy? What is the purpose behind letting unequal beings into the same arena for a fight? If we have the power to do, to think, to feel then why don’t we have the power to foresee events and behavior all the time?
There is a sense of urgency and desperation in our need for control.
To quote what someone said – we are in a ship of fools.
